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Lord, Israel could just throw off their idols, demolish them and stop serving them. 
Jeremiah could do that. And many others too at that time could choose to seek you alone and that is why you spoke through them. 
But what am I supposed to do with my idol? How will I throw off my self? How do I deny my self again and again. It pops up again and again. May be it is my problem alone. But i realise I am helpless Lord. I do not know what to do? 
I cry out to you. Help me Abba. Help me to cast away my self. Because you have spoken to me about my idol. And I realize how much it hurts you when I do things to appease my idol. But I, selfish as I am, am not able to cast away my idol. That much I love my idol. I wonder what love I have for you. 
Help me to seek you alone. I am helpless. You have shown me mercy till date. You have not cast me away, just as you have dealt with everyone who practises idolatory. Show me grace so that I will be able to do this by your power. I admit I am helpless. I am unable to do anything to deny my own self. For it keeps coming back again and again. I am in that rut. 
Every act of mine (good or bad), every desire, all are to please my own self. Even the good things that I do are stained with self. Of course the bad things are obvious. Forgive me. Heal me. Purify me. Wash me clean. Fill me with you. Only you can do it. Help me. 
Amen. 

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