Joseph would have been shattered. Not just his dreams or hopes alone. His heart as well. Devastated, wrecked and ravaged. His own brothers, his own family, his own blood betrayed him.
But for Reuben, I would have fallen dead in this cistern, he thought. What shall I think of the beating and bruising and jeering? "What of your dream now?" They made fun. Earlier none of them believed, they ridiculed me. Yes they hated me for that. But now there is physical abuse. Seriously, they did never love me. Aren't they my own dear brothers? What wrong did I do? I thought they would be proud of my dreams too. That through me our family would go greater heights. Don't they understand? The God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob is with us brothers too. Then why did they do this to me?
All alone in this cistern now. I could hear of the drinking and laughing up there. They are happy because they could get rid of me. So, it was not an accident. It was not instinctive or impulsive. It was all well planned. They wanted to get rid of me. And they are planning to lie to father that I have been devoured by some wild animal. They are seriously not going to rescue me from here. I'm shattered, my own brothers......
No I will not remain here. I will not remain in my discouragement. God has a purpose. God who watched over me in my father's place will watch over me in this dry well as well. He was the one who gave me those dreams. He will fulfill. His hands are not limited. He is here with me. He has a plan for me. He is here now. He will always be with me. I shall not be discouraged. I shall not remain in my despondency, because my God has been good, is good and will be good to me. Thank you God for showing that even though my brothers fail me, you are always with me.
What is that jingling that I hear? I could sense that smell of spices and myrrh and hear the grunt of camels. It was Judah who spoke up, let us sell him to Ishmaelites. Surely they wouldn't desert me here. I can be sure they wouldn't take me back to my father, but they wouldn't let me die here too. My God has plans for me, which I have not even dreamt. Not according to my plan. He has greater plan. I will cling on to Him. I will hold fast to Him. He has not left alone. He loves me. So I will hold on, no matter what.
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Wonderful thought
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