Obsession

Eze:20:8

....... The vile images you are obsessed with.

The King of kings talks to the prophet as a friend. He tells him the whole story. He gives him the big picture. What His own children did to Him the wverloving father. He entered into a covenant with the people of Israel just like that. And they have squandered His love without any remorse.

Prostitution. Adultery. Idolatory. Children being sacrificed. Forgetting God. What else and what not. The whole history of the nation. And the whole weeping heart of God. Who longs for His children to come back.

What am I obsessed with? What am I so pre occupied with that I forget God in the process?

He has entered into this covenant of peace, mercy and grace without even me asking. Just out of His shear will He chose to do this for me. But I have squandered every single iota of His act of love. I have been obsessed with the vile images which are nothing but useless.

The everlasting God on one side. The futile things which I trust on the other side of the balance. I've always chosen the others.

And the very things which I have put my trust in, has only deserted me. Useless. Vile. Insignificant. But still I continue to trust them.

If there is absolute trust in the unchanging all powerful God and if my hope is only in Him, then why would I worry.

Because these things which I trust would not come to my aide, that is exactly why I'm worried when I'm overwhelmed. I've known this. But still I've chosen my futile obsessions. I'm doomed with this. Is there no way out? Though I understand this truth why am I unable to put my complete trust in Him who never changes? Why am I not obsessed with Him? Is there any way out?

That is what the covenant is for. A covenant is bound to be broken and thrown to trash because I've broken it. But because He is everloving and neverchanging. He upholds this covenant. He in His mercy co tinues to hold fast to it.

Eze:20:9-10

Then I threatened to pour out my fury on them to satisfy my anger...... But I did not do it, for I acted to protect the honour of my name.

For His name's sake. He held fast to the word He gave.

He is faithful. Even when I'm unfaithful.

He continues to love. Even when I have been obsessed with other things. Even when I have committed adultery.

Oh! Why should He do this? What is there in me to be loved like this. I have only disappointed Him. But He still loves.

He is obsessed with me. He is mindful of me. He will never change.

Image credit: https://www.nytimes.com/2014/01/23/opinion/when-making-money-is-an-obsession.html

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