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1Sam:9

Finally Samuel meets Saul - the future first king of Israel. He was the most handsome man in Israel, head and shoulders taller than anyone else in the land. When Samuel confronts him with his future and the future of Israel, it is interesting to note that Saul says that he is from the smallest of the tribes and the least of all families. 
A man so handsome and tall, but very low in confidence. So insecure.

I'm not saying he should have grabbed it with two hands and that he was humble and not proud of his physicality. Yes that's all true. But a golden opportunity of a lifetime comes knocking at your doorstep, the world would teach to just grab it.

Insecurity is a common feeling, man often fails to acknowledge, but sure to have in mind. Starting from the king to the pauper. A lack of self confidence. But I would say it is something good to have if directed in the right way. When I am weak, You become stronger. "My strength is made perfect in your weakness." That's when we gain on God confidence rather than self confidence.

We realize it was pseudohumility in Saul's words. [As we see later in his life]
I'm not saying he was bluffing, but his inherant nature of pride and insecurity [towards David later] was reflected now early in his life. He was always insecure. Instead of looking unto God and depending on Him, he resorted to his own methods.

How do I respond to the realisation that I'm insecure too?
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